If my sexuality didn’t define me, then what did? I launched into the Bible to answer one of the basic questions of all humans, “Who am I?”
Psalm 139:13-16 would guide my way, and Genesis chapters 1 to 3 and Romans 1:21-32 would serve as bookends in this leg of the journey. Let me be clear at this point: I didn’t believe that the the Bible necessarily had any authority to speak into my life, nor did I consider it absolute truth. I did believe that God was the creator of all things, including me. Yet I was at odds with the Bible when it came to sexuality. Seven key Bible passages commonly referred to as the “Clobber Passages“ had put me at odds with with my maker: Genesis 19:1-11, Leviticus 18:22, Leviticus 20:13, Romans 1:26-27, I Corinthians 6:9-10, I Timothy1:10, Jude 1:7. I will readily admit that these verses serve as the dividing line between traditional Christianity and pro-gay theology in regards to sexuality.
I was all too familiar with these passages ; I had heard them spewed from unkind people who cared more about being morally right than they cared about me. Did I really want to subject myself to this task? Yet I couldn’t escape the question Jesus seemed to be asking me in Mark 8: What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? So where did I need to start? It made logical sense to start where it all began. As I read and reread over and over Genesis chapter 1, I could not ignore that God created both male and female in His image, the same yet different, in Genesis 1:27 . That did not bode well with my feminist/egalitarian view of the sexes.
Another thing that was challenging me was the question, what was truth? I was, after all, of the post-modernist mindset. Wasn’t truth relevant and applicable at my discretion? How could truth possibly be absolute and definitive? However, the the more I read the Bible and deeper I dug, the more it pushed me to define truth. Of all things I felt the need to resolve if the Bible was absolute truth. I know, it was easier to just say, Look truth is relevant and leave at that. But something wouldn’t let me leave it at that. Jesus’ own words about Himself and the Holy Spirit echoed in my heart and mind. Jesus said He was “the way, the truth and the life” in John 14:6 and He also said He gave us the Holy Spirit to lead and guide us into all truth in John 16:13 . Okay, if this was so then it made sense for me to ask Jesus and the Holy Spirit to lead and guide me to the truth about sexuality and who God created me to be.
Perhaps that is an overly simplistic approach to all this, but it made sense to me. Little did I know that Truth was going to confront me head on and challenge me at the very core of my being. Friends, if you wrestle with the sexuality issue and claim to be both gay and Christian, then I would encourage you to take this journey. Warning: it is not for the faint of heart!
Thanks for sharing my journey; your comments are welcome.