In my last post I shared this from AW Tozer “What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us.” For the majority of my life I considered my sexual identity, to be the most important thing about me. Over the course of the last seven years, I have come to understand who I believe God to be; impacts every aspect of my being and therefore the most important thing in my life.
Prior to embracing Christianity, I believed Jesus to be a good man, a prophet who had the gift of healing. As I studied Judaism, I acknowledged God to be the creator of the universe and humanity. Yet it was impossible for me to see God as loving, good or trustworthy. In my mind I couldn’t get past the fact that God would create me gay and consider me an abomination and condemn me to hell simply for being born a woman attracted to other women. I am confident I am not the only who has ever thought that or will ever think that.ls down to who we believe God to be and are we willing to trust His design, intent and purpose for our lives. To be honest, it would be far easier for me to embrace “gay Christian”, because it allows me to fully embrace my attractions, desires, and feelings.
Yet I can’t ignore, Jesus’ mandate to live a life surrendering the most important aspects of myself to Him. See Matthew 16:24, Luke 9:23, and Mark 8:34-37. The question for me became; are my attractions, desires, and feelings more important than what the Bible has to say about God’s design for sexuality, gender and marriage. In essence can I trust God’s intent and purpose for these things or live how I want to live? Do I know better than God? or can I believe that He is good, faithful and can be trusted?
I have concluded that God designed sexuality to be expressed within the marriage relationship between one man and one woman. He did so, so that our lives would go well and we would live long and prosper. When we as humans step outside of Gods design, intent and purpose for us all does not go well for us. I know, I know some of you are thinking ;”oh Hope you poor deluded and misguided soul!”
Let me ask you this as a Christian do you believe that this life and living by how we feel and letting our attractions and desires define us is Biblical. What do you do with Jesus mandate to deny ourselves in the scriptures above. How do you reconcile passages such as Colossians 3:3-5?
3-4 Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you’ll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you. Meanwhile, be content with obscurity, like Christ.
5-8 And that means killing off everything connected with that way of death: sexual promiscuity, impurity, lust, doing whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it, and grabbing whatever attracts your fancy. That’s a life shaped by things and feelings instead of by God. (The Message)
Final questions Who knows better you or God? Can you trust God with the most important parts of your life? Who will you trust?
I welcome honest conversation and questions on faith and sexuality.
Thanks for following my journey,