In part one of this series I stated, “If I am honest I struggle with the concept of ‘sin nature’ for many of the same reasons I do with the ‘born this way’ mindset. If sin is an inherited trait then my freedom of choice is diminished.”
From my study of Genesis 1 and 2, humanity is described as being made in the image of God, who deemed them a good part of His creation. (Genesis 1:26-27) God’s intent for humankind was to be image bearers of His character and nature to one another, to imitate Him by choosing holiness. (Ephesians 1:4)
In my post I’m Gay, Not a Sinner I said that “Sin in its simplest terms is an unwillingness to trust God. Sin adopts the attitude, ‘I know better than God.’ In the New Testament the Greek word for sin is defined as ‘missing the mark’ of God’s standard of righteousness.” I would add that sin can be seen as an abuse and misuse of our created purpose. As a result, sin creates an inner conflict, disorder, confusion and dysfunction.
If sin is these things, it leaves me with this question: What if “sin” takes away God’s intended design and purpose—to be holy and live in relationship with Him? As I have intentionally read the Bible I began to see sin in a different light. I have come to understand that sin is any action that harms my relationship with God and/or another person. God designed us to respond to Him in a way that is in agreement with His nature(to be holy). Sin breaks that relational connection, refuses the gift of relationship with God, and ultimately it causes us to reject God.
Until they willfully disobeyed God, Adam and Eve were connected to God in a way that gave them the ability to resist the urge to sin, as long as they chose to resist. When Adam and Eve sinned against God, they broke the bond of trust they had enjoyed with Him up until that time. They didn’t believe God knew what was best for them. As a result they lost their close personal relationship with God in a way that all humans, outside of faith in Jesus Christ, have endured ever since. Sin separated Adam and Eve from God and created a need for restoration of that relationship. (Genesis 3) Apart from God, Adam and Eve became relationally broken people who modeled brokenness to their children. Sin entered the world through Adam and we humans continue to sin and live outside of relationship with God. (Romans 5:12)
God did not intend or plan for us to live sinning against Him, but rather in relationship with Him. That is why the Bible says that sin is “against nature.” (Romans 1:26-27) People choose to do “that which is against nature” or contrary to God’s intended design and purpose. It was never God’s intention for people to sin. God did not create us as sinful people, but as holy.
So am I gay or a sinner? Truth be told, I am a sinner. I have lived the majority of my life missing the mark of God’s intended purpose for my life.
As a gay woman I strayed from God’s design and intent for sexuality. Like Adam and Eve, I believed I knew better than God, when it came to my sexuality, and I stepped outside His purpose. I acknowledge I am a woman who was impacted by sexual and relational brokenness; as a result of both by my choices and those of others. My feelings, attractions and desires have trumped my ability to trust God and His design for my life.
I am a woman who is inclined to sin via sexual and relational brokenness. Sin has caused me to see my sexuality through a distorted lens. It has caused me live in relational brokenness with other women. Foremost, sin separated me from God and caused a need for redemption and restoration in my life. We will explore that next time.
Thanks for following my journey, I welcome honest discussion and questions.